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Two Realizations
I think I may feel better if I put them down here:
1. I really truly actually feel lonely, and I don't know what's up - I hide in my room, and I feel lonely around people, like I can't connect with them. This is not good.
2. I want to be happy.
2 sounds stupid, but is important. Some people want to be sad, or are scared of happiness because they don't know it/understand it. It's easier, really, to be unhappy, I think. Sometimes I feel like I want to be sad. But really? I WANT to be happy, to work for happiness instead of just being complacent and getting stuck in my habits, emotional and otherwise.
hmpf...
Goals for tomorrow:
get up at 7:30
go to gym
type LOTS
go to class, determine if am in fact presenting something next week...
emailing
I wrote a list on paper, it is organized and pretty and helpful, and not panic-inducing as most lists have been lately. I need to use it and check things off.
Ok.
1. I really truly actually feel lonely, and I don't know what's up - I hide in my room, and I feel lonely around people, like I can't connect with them. This is not good.
2. I want to be happy.
2 sounds stupid, but is important. Some people want to be sad, or are scared of happiness because they don't know it/understand it. It's easier, really, to be unhappy, I think. Sometimes I feel like I want to be sad. But really? I WANT to be happy, to work for happiness instead of just being complacent and getting stuck in my habits, emotional and otherwise.
hmpf...
Goals for tomorrow:
get up at 7:30
go to gym
type LOTS
go to class, determine if am in fact presenting something next week...
emailing
I wrote a list on paper, it is organized and pretty and helpful, and not panic-inducing as most lists have been lately. I need to use it and check things off.
Ok.
